|li came.i saw.i conquered.|laut vincere aut mori|

look over here

2006-08-22T18:00:00.000+01:00

i will continue to make you proud
mark my word

i am glad i have friends standing by me

2006-07-11T16:10:00.000+01:00

it's a good thing to call. you know at least what's going on. i called dit. she told me everything. things i should have listened before i had made a grave decision. at least now i know i won't repeat my mistakes again. 3 years i have closed it finally. i know the truth now. i know what to do. i know who is who. i know who to trust.
dit: thanks girl. 2 years of friendship we had. and today you had been a great help. thanks. without you i will still be in the dark till now. thanks for being a great girl friend though we can hardly hang out now. i know i can count on you when everyone else turns away.thanks for crying wit me.

kit kat: hey though we haven't really know each other but thanks for being there to support me. giving me advice. scolding me when i'm just being foolish. you never fail to brighten my day. telling me to pick myself up on my own. e phone call we have, start with a cry but always end with a laughter.thanks for putting a smile on me and encouraging me throughout (: you know me better than most other people i know

me?

2006-07-09T22:54:00.000+01:00

平和型（?和豁?，?天知命）
您通常是?暖、友善、忍耐、?和、不好??，以及???。您偏好和平、有??、可?期而舒服的生活。您喜?配合?境，因而很?知道自己的?先次序，?成跟??人所希望而去做事，有?候甚至模仿?人??的腔?、用?，以及身??言。

??：非常主?，具有?多?趣和嗜好。您喜??人?伍，可以?了?人而??最具生?力的工作成效。
缺?：您?「自我?忘」，失去了什?是?自己真正重要的?察力。您很容易分心，即使一?人?，亦有可能把高度?先的事情留到最後才做。看起?很像是拖延，但?不故意。

?情：您一旦?有了??，不?想到分?，而且?承?去???常不分?的??。您既忠?又慷慨，可以不?妒忌或??心去支持???伴?的成功，?伴?的需要浮??，更能?予回?。
您的?怒最有可能在?密??中??。因??您迎合?人?，自己就消失了。「我有好?一段??不知道自己的感?，?是一片空白。?她投射出她所??我感?到的事情?，我?便陷入?吵。我痛恨??情形，但是?於引?我找到自己想要什???有?助。」

安定方位：成就型在安定的??下您??得很?一，能在短???完成?多?出的事。
?力方位：忠?型?面?感情的?力或情??抗?，您??得充?恐?，意?到所?在的威?，不但?得退?，甚至唯命是?、好?、?扭而且更?固。
建意：??自己的想法，而非???人的意?注意您?改?的不?感，???迎新事物。注意您的?固和被?式抗拒
最渴望：和洽相?最恐?：有??，有?突最??到的美德：果? (Right action)最?克服的?念：?惰 (Sloth)

juat how much?

2006-07-08T16:57:00.000+01:00

how much would you go to salvage your friendship? put aside your pride and humble yourself.
it's not easy but i'm not going to let a little bubble or pride get in my way. i'm not sure if it is worth it but i'd like to take a gamble. maybe i was wrong all these while but i was too blind to see it. maybe i was too much to you. maybe what i thought it was isn't what it really is.maybe you are not that bad after all.maybe i should be a better friend to you.i will try.i don't want to lose a friend like you.i don't want to be like one of those people who are too proud to admit their mistakes; too proud to grab hold of the friendship; too proud to say "please stay.i'd like to salavage our friendship."because we have been through a lot and i am not prepared to lose you again.you are not just those friends who come and go.you listen to my cries.reassure me that things will be fine.pick up my call at 4am.never yell at me.lend me a shoulder to make me feel safe.

get lost

2006-07-07T13:30:00.000+01:00

will it kill you to say something nice instead of bringing me down all the time??
will you perish by motivating me??
do you have to think so highly of yourself and criticise me all the time??
seriously, what's so great about you?
tell you what you are just an empty shell inside.
all those big talk is nothing.
before telling someone to f*** off
please f*** off 1st man
i can't stand being around you
suit yourself

i'd like to

2006-06-29T19:02:00.000+01:00

i'd like to stand up
again
on my feet

i'd like not to
look up to you
and feel miserable

i'd like to live in peace
and not be haunted
by your being

i'd like to find my self-esteem
and not hang my head
feeling inferior

i'd like to face the world
without you
at nect to neck wit me

i'd like to see
what is beyond
you

i'd like to find my identity
that i lost
when you stepped in

i'd like to find myself again
in my own haven
without you

i'd like to be
true
to myself

i'd like to be
me

remember me this way

2006-06-25T15:42:00.000+01:00

Every now and then

We find a special friend

Who never lets us down

Who understands it all

Reaches out each time you fall

You're the best friend that I've found

I know you can't stay

A part of you will never ever go away

Your heart will stay

I'll make a wish for you

And hope it will come true

That life would just be kind

To such a gentle mind

If you lose your way

Think back on yesterday

Remember me this way

~jordan hill

2006-06-24T08:22:00.001+01:00

louise kissed us!!

2006-06-24T08:22:00.000+01:00

roomies :)

2006-06-24T00:32:00.000+01:00

romactic background. a sight t behold

2006-06-24T00:25:00.000+01:00

me and marcia and Bath

forget it. yes forget it.

2006-06-24T00:19:00.000+01:00

i'm done with the past. no more turning back for real this time.
i'm done with this fruitless business.i deserve much better than this.
walk out of that door and don't look back.
don't
look
back

dedicated to my buddy

2006-06-10T01:12:00.000+01:00

changed my blog template. gotta get away from blackness once in a while.
i love my new blog face :)
i'm still stuck at home with math.
most of my friends have finished their exam and rejoicing now.
wait and see.
next thu is my turn, guys.

yeah this sounds quite choppy. or rather maybe most of my entries sound so.

here goes,
these few days have been critical days for big decisions. an abandoned3 years affair. it was quite a complex case. still unsolved. i will have to see how it goes this summer holiday. hopefully there is still time to salvage a friendship. i don't abandon friends. good friends. no matter what has happened. yes you may have changed. but deep inside you there is still a fragment of your old self that lingers. i want to hold on to it. and build our friendship where we have left off. brick by brick. the foundation is more or less solid enough. it's up to us to decide the next step.
hopefully in years to come i can still sit next to you laughing to your jokes with a genuine smile and see that glimmer of boyishness persist in your eyes.

even if the world comes crashing down or everybody else turns against you i still want to stand by your side and lend you the support i can as a friend. deep inside you no matter what still remains a buddy i found years back. we went through thick and thin then. i can't forget that. i refuse to abandon you just because of things that have happened since feb 14th. though it is too complex to comprehend, i would like to take it as a journey of self discovery. it is because of you i found my identity, and who i want to be, although it contradicts your beliefs. we are different no doubt thats why we complement each other as friends which is otherwise a disaster.

come to think of it you have been the one persistent in listening to my problems. well you are not as sympathetic as you used to be since now your life takes a greater priority to you so it seems to me. i wish we can be more understanding and caring to each other; initiated kindness, without being told; maybe that's when me and you will smile again. (yeah i believe in platonic friendship.come to think of it 3/4 of my friends are boys and i see nothing wrong with that. just as you are with gals.) let's rebuild our friendship. sounds challenging but yeah i can tell it's gonna be hell of fun. i love problems. just that you have too tolerate my mood swing sometimes. not the most pleasing trait but too bad you gotta put up with it. ( however i can proudly say it's much better since we 1st met) my bad :P

ps jgn gr man. it's just a dedication. i'm not ready to enshrine a blog to u. hah! i only do that for myself.

2006-06-09T23:51:00.000+01:00

testing

2006-06-09T23:50:00.000+01:00

testing

inner voice

2006-06-07T01:16:00.000+01:00

Inner voice is the voice mouth of the sub conscious mind.

It is the dare devil child of the intuitions which we have been having since childhood.

Its good to go by intuitions most of the times because its the response provided due to the synchronism between our mental and physical being.

I am the master of my fate,I am the captain of my soul.

what goes around will come around

2006-06-03T20:21:00.000+01:00

the world does go around
and me
i have to take a step forward
and move to the next quarter

social norms. a question of beliefs?

2006-05-28T01:03:00.000+01:00

Man are poor judges to their happiness
More often than not, you have to sacrifice the innocents for your happiness.
Unintended.

somtimes you have to follow your desire and sacrifice your conscience to attain happiness. is it true?

"A child has the eyes of innocence, and sees things as they could be. A child is not worried about making an adult decision. Fantasies, wishes, hopes and dreams guide the young ones through life. It's only after they have grown to adulthood, that they have been clouded and blinded from that innocence. Then decisions are made through logical evaluations and not through the heart of spirit."

we are the products of the society cut out to fit their demand.
we are complied to think in certain way; to feel coz we perceive so; to act according to a fixed code of norms.

i reflected back on Emma by Jane Austen.
times have not really changed for most of us.
people marry by class back then and
now we mingle by parentage.
what the adults taught don't change
but what we act do change.
we don't listen so much anymore.

social norms hardly change.
homosexuality is a taboo in Tennessee Williams times.
It is still now.

[i'm talking about Asia.]

In the eyes of the adults, sometimes things seem to be going by the book according to the social rules. I wonder if they ever penetrate the mind of their children.
here's a scenario.
you are a straight A student, your parents have always known you are an angel.
you never skip classes ( maybe that's what THEY assume) and you behave well acc tording to Confucius.

however they know nothin who you mix with after school. who you chat with online. where you haunt the night.do they even know you do the things they would have frowned upon?
maybe they won't even know if you lost your virginity outside. do they even know you saw what you shouldnt have? even if u reach the legal age the would still restrain you if they can help it. they do not know the reputation you had built among another spectrum of the world.your world.

yes it is worrying. this happened to some of the people i know.it is rather disturbing that those you thought the least would have done it in fact are the most obvious suspects in the end.what if such things happen to the closest person next to you? would you feel that the ammoral side of the world closing on you? would you fear being the next victim? some people seem to be able to get away with what they do so easily; even if the have committed the most condemned deed their life still goes on as per normal; or is it not? you can keep on guessing what goes on within them really. however i wouldn't know for sure coz simply i haven't been there. all i know is as long as i stick to my principles and conscience, everything will be fine. in the end what makes a person is the beliefs he or she embodies.to fight what you believe in against pressures, influences or even desires is perhaps one thing you will get used to as you grow; the challenges may prove to be increasingly unbearable down the road.

(have i used apostrophes correctly? hopefully Ms R won't get the chance to see this. how heartbreakin would she have felt when her lecture has gone down the drain? sigh. too bad isn't it? who could be interested in spending the last hour of afternoon lesson listening to someone droning on grammars out of all things?) sorry girl, my bad.

half term. [YAY]

2006-05-27T23:37:00.000+01:00

8 papers down
3 more to go!!
C3 + C4 + mechanics = do i care the least?

i gave my blog a face uplift.
tho im not so pleased here and there but it looks alright.

FRESH and NEW

maybe i do need one too. XTREME MAKEOVER perhaps?

yeah maybe get a J Lo butt? ha ha joking

i am contented with my behind. big enough for my liking.

this weekend gonna be NO STUDY period. i'm just simply going to unwind and just chill out.
basically give my brain a chance to laze and non stop rock music.

http://www.parttimelove.com/Assessories/NineType

2006-05-20T22:17:00.000+01:00

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2006-05-20T18:07:00.000+01:00

london here i come baby! so long bramley!

2006-05-20T17:55:00.000+01:00

asians stuck in the run-down school

2006-05-20T17:54:00.000+01:00

roomies. unicorn + monchichi = ?

2006-05-20T17:53:00.001+01:00

yes dear let's kill each other

2006-05-20T17:53:00.000+01:00

AAARRHH i saw him in the ladies!!

let's UPDATE!

2006-05-20T11:10:00.000+01:00

HEELLLLLOOO peeps!

here's the latest news:
i went go karting last weekend on a boarding outing and i almost lost my head!!
it was no fun on the first lap goin on a snail pace. then i sped. i had the ride of my life. and i almost lost my life.my car crashed into the road block.so does my head. almost. i thought " so this is it. goodbye everyone i love. sayonara...I LOVE YOU ALL!!"
i was so overwhelmed.i have got blue blacks all over.

MY FIRST NEAR DEATH XPERIENCE. SO FUN!!! i never thought it could have happened to me. i thought it only occured in movie stuns! WHOOPEEE! yeah

hey everyone thought it's the worst crash ever. oh well at least i still keep my life and i received 'accolades'. not bad for a start. stunwomen maybe?

here goes this week column:
well guess what. it's goin to be a boring one. i'm havin study leave. basically it's EXAM TIME!
yes no lessons. no nagging teachers.no piling homework.
WAIT A MINUTE. dont scream YEEEHHHAAA yet.

this means. 24hr mind and spiritual disintegration in the tiny room in the boardin place of a sch in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by cows and horses. yes stuck in a countryside.

plus my laptop cant play dvds and as u noe my sch blocked so many websites including hotmail, msn, seventeen (are they tryin t restrain us from buyin clothes? wow. THANKS) and most types of chatting messenger( except google talk. peeps PLEASE SIGN UP WITH GOOGLEMAIL, CHAT WIT ME IN GOOGLE TALK. ADD avrilelvina@googlemail.com
i am so freakin bored.

i really miss my primary sch friends. i dun like the peeps here. esp those hu haf been in gals sch for so so long. i just contempt their social politics. it just disgusts me. so are you crying just coz ur friend apparently is in another group of friends as well? well missy tat is life. besides ur lil trick of crying wit ur pitiful look wont work. old trick. why shed tears over trivial matters? by the time you are 30 you would have cried ur tearbags empty and u will hav looked thrice your age. GET A LIFE. here it is i dont like cry babies who make such a big fuss of a tiny bitsy problem. there are many out there with way bigger problems than you.please dont ever think that you deserve everyone's attention.you think your cries can garner sympathy? you are wrong. mayb the boys will have fallen for that. but not other people. you are not some celebrity who made it to the spotlight. yes. dont pretend with your fake fronts because that just disgusts me.while you bitch behind someone's back.don't pretend to be helpful and nice to anyone if you don't mean it at all. angelic face don't work here.chameleons however seem to be the most dangerous type of people of all. you see that gal who seem to be doing fine in either cliche? well maybe she is someone worth watching out.overly touchy and girly gals put me off.

this is for some people out there who think you fulfill any of the criteria above.please make life less miserable for the people.you are simply revolting.

honestly i dont prefer the westerners than the asians themselves sometimes. of course there are still nice asians peeps out there

I AM BACK

2006-04-24T04:47:00.000+01:00

extracted from terminator 3 quote:

I'M BACK

yes yes i am here to harrass you all again!

kai you better watch out. more mockeries comin' your way!!

*evil laughter*

what do you think of my FRESH start to this pos?

is that corny enough?

what ya lookin at?

don't give me that funny look

yes don't frown

this is what i call pre-school syndrome

ok let's get on with the proper summary of my life so far:

spent my easter hols in SUNNY ISLAND!

hung out with my junior and we played lan, thrashing each other out. YEAH DOTA rox

(onlyif u get to win for once after countless losses in your life. but yeah GOOD GAME jr!)

went for a casual outing with kai chi i mean chi chi the MONKEY! (hey tis isn't slander alrite. don't sue me so soon yet.read on. more to come!)

haha so we both monkeys monkeyin' around in monkey land (taka)

we 2 big pots of lunch @ Pepper Lunch. great stuff. had a chat

bumped into our sec school lit teachers, the inseparable besties. and we met Jane

i have to say she looked so much more different. and TALLER. sigh. ( do u know how depressed i was?)

another day was spent with milton. we played pool. i forgot my ID but we got away with it anyway. i had a 2 hour lesson on pool. i made a mountain of losses of course. bleahz. *give myself a pat on the shoulder*beginner's smirk*NEXT TIME when i am much a better player i 'll try to win!! (if i ever play again...) we headed for Pizzahut and we ordered a couple's meal set.(a make-up for my vdae?) we ordered CHEESY LAVA HAWAIIAN SUPREME!! *yeah we smell like cheese* ha ha he was bloated. we downed 3 big slices each. so he said his was bigger. and he puked in the toilet later. poor guy. felt kinda bad draggin him there. anyway it was a helluva fun day!

here are just bits and pieces of my hols. save the rest for later!

sigh milton, mervyn, lich sent me off yesterday. ( 3 Musketeers and a damsel? she wasn't in distress tho)

i have got my 1st gift from milton! a bear figurine in yellow! my fav colour (:

(thank god it wasn't contraceptive pills he has always promised me.phew)

and mervyn got me a set of poker cards. well i don't really play cards well. 0.1 knowledge ha ha. you gotta teach me some time! we had a good chat. I MISS THOSE PRIMARY SCH DAYS!

I WILL MISS YOU GUYS LOADS ((:

g u i l d f o r d here i come!

2006-04-24T04:38:00.000+01:00

friends forever (:

2006-04-17T03:06:00.000+01:00

long live cousins!

true love

2006-04-16T17:20:00.000+01:00

ANNOUNCEMENT

i found my true LOVe !!

DOTA

if i were

2006-04-08T05:41:00.000+01:00

if...
i were to be born again
i'd choose to be a boy...

small surprises in life

2006-04-07T17:02:00.000+01:00

people i have never talked to before sent me birthday wishes
i dont even know you
your birthdays or whatsoever
only your name and your face come into my mind
nothing else
i was pleasantly surprised
i guess i have been quite blind all these while
never knowing that they do give a hoot of today
i learn to pay more attention to those around me
little gestures of attention do make a difference
a big THANK YOU to you :)

how to spot a MORON

2006-03-29T19:01:00.000+01:00

Why did it take the moron an hour to eat breakfast?
Because the orange juice carton instructions said Concentrate ! !

How did the moron try to kill a fish?
He tried to drown it in the sea.

How did the moron fall on the floor?
He tripped over the cordless phone.

How did the moron try to kill a bird?
He threw it off a mountain cliff !

How do you confuse a moron?
Put him in a round room and tell him to sit in one corner!

Hear about the moron that got an AM radio?
It took him a month to realize he could play it at night.

Two morons were walking through the woods and they came to some tracks.
The first moron said "These look like deer tracks,"
and the other moron said, "No, they look like moose tracks."
They argued and argued, and they were still arguing when the train hit them.

Why can't a moron dial 911?
They can't find the 11 on the phone!

YOU BE THE JUDGE!

"me finding it hard to find the gal... of my dreams
must dream more"
is he a moron?

i will tell you next time

NOTE: How do you keep a moron in suspense?
I'll tell you tomorrow! (hehehehe)

see how u can spot a moron easily.
Now u can safely throw Yerkes's theory down the bin

Four Seasons

2006-03-21T21:54:00.000Z

Four scene of love and laughter.
I'll be alright being alone.
Four scene of love and laughter.
I'll be alright being alone...
Four scene of love and laughter.
I'll be alright being alone...
Four scene of love and laughter.
I will be okay.

If I meet my love,
and we part,
We'll meet again,
like we did before.
The sweet darkness I find
Fumbling around deep in my memories

I can taste the sweetness of the past.
Although you're not anywhere
I'll be alright,
If I close my eyes to that,
Love won't change,
I believe

When the spring light warms,
the flowers bloom
In summer, I gaze at the moon floating on the sea
The fall wind, and the winter snow
With that sigh, I wish to be warmed,
Four seasons with your love
Once again.

The promise of that only wish
Fades away when time passes.
Can you feel me underneath the skin?
If feelings again happened that way,
We'll be alright,
If I just believe,
No matter how far away you are,
Stay with me.

The spring flowers sleep as we meet in the night.
I leave a message in the sandy beaches of summer.
The fall rain, the winter tears,
With a show of love, I wish to be warmed,
Four seasons with your love
In a dream.

Time flows into my heart,
And truthfully,
Our every day is nearer to a memory,
Love and dreams may be things forgotten
one day, but, my wish is to be warmed.
Four seasons with your love,
Within my heart.

Four scene, four seasons
Four scene, I��ll be alright��
Four scene, four seasons
Four scene, stay with me��

ooohhh........aaaaahhh............

This is such a sweet song....

i mean it. really.

SWOON

2006-03-21T00:36:00.000Z

formulae of women.lets prove it wrong!

2006-03-21T00:24:00.000Z

prom nite ((: lovely nite

2006-03-19T00:42:00.000Z

POUT.funny. angelina J O L I E pehaps would have done a better job

2006-03-19T00:40:00.000Z

declaration of love: i know vdae is over but.... I LOVE my roomie!

2006-03-19T00:38:00.000Z

on our way back to school. SOB

2006-03-19T00:37:00.000Z

absolutely COLD. waiting for the ride for 1 hour in 6 DEGREES AINT FUN

2006-03-19T00:35:00.000Z

lil darling tiger *ROOAAR

finally. 1 visit in 5 years.or maybe more?

2006-03-18T23:55:00.001Z

today is boardin outing to Thorpe Park.
FINALLY
after 5 years or more of deprivation, i got to see a theme park again
i braced myself for the rides;
those that went sky high
that sent my heart leaping out
and my head whizzing with the blurry images
that went at the speed of light

the wind was so strong i could barely hold my head up
the air pressure was just unbearable

AND it was 6 DEGREE COLD
I almost froze to death
of course I could only blame myself
for being complacent
for wearing 2 thin layers of clothings

STUPID MISTAKE
my hands numbed
and turned white
I could barely feel my face
it was seething painful

karen, natalie and me went dizzy after 2 rides
and karen and I spent the rest of the afternoon
hoppin from one machine to another
trying out luck to win any dolls
to satisfy our fancy

it was so addictive i must say
we spent so much
it was horrifying
natalie's eyeballs almost popped out
YES we both practically went beserk
we could not win any
and
one disappointment after another
proved to be a hazardous encouragement

After countless attempts, with hard luck
i won one tiger doll
which was not worth the money
i could have bought it from any store for 1/5 of the money spent

Other games apparently were not too merciful on us
they were impossible
how the hell can you knock a pyramid of cans off the table
with
ONE SINGLE BASEBALL
come on
the probability of it is perhaps 1:20

we,
dragged a poor Natalie around in a cold wintry day for 3 hours
just to watch us machine freaks storming into every machine
with absolutely
ZERO PERCENT of success

(there goes my 2 weeks allowance)

well being human
we have feelings
we were conscience stricken
it was not long before we ended our
machine massacre

we had fun
it was the craziest afternoon

all was not lost
except our money

it left a
HOLE IN MY POCKET AND MY HEART

2006-03-18T23:55:00.000Z

posing in lecture theatre. depserate for some form of 'intellectual' entertainment

oxford open day is DEAD

2006-03-18T23:32:00.000Z

alrite so tis professor came in and gave u a mock interview
and u dont know any thing he said
esp if it is a real law case with law terms u haf no idea of
and he s speakin in pure scottish accent
wad would u do?
well u wish u can just walk off the place
apparently u ant afford to offend anyone and banish ur 0.000001% of joining the 'INSITUITION OF WEIRDOS'
so u sit there and stare into his geeky face and stone for 6 hours max of nonsense
( and if it dun make things any better, u found out can get everythin off the internet)
so much for a 5 hour ride to oxford. it is jus a complete waste of time, money, inspiration and morale

kiss goodbye

2006-03-14T23:56:00.000Z

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dont go roving no more

2006-03-14T23:30:00.000Z

i looked back
every step that i took
was decided
by
a flick of their fingers
by
a 'yes' or a 'no'
by
a cross or a tick

i was moulded into
what they want me to be
coz
thats what is good for me

i was told
i cant do this or that
coz
thats the way things are

my life was decided

why?
coz im theirs

but the Clock of Nature is so kind
to have spared me
of this wretchedness

i went away
and

i grow far and apart from them
i learn to survive on my devices
i fell and bruised
i helped myself up

in a new different world
i found myself

who i truly want to be
who i truly am

look
it's my turn
you cant pen down my life anymore

the clean canvas before me
is no else's but mine to paint

i am your puppet

no more

i feel alive once again

2006-02-28T15:57:00.000Z

aerobics so is fun!
Madonna's

HUNG

bOOming
feet swinging up and down

stomp stOMP STOMP

hair swishing off my face

the view before me blurred
a surge of energy electrocute me
my mind, in a world of my own

I forgot the world for once

Alive I felt

things are not always well
but you just have to make do with it
thats life
nothing more to it

what else there is to life?
live and be what you wanna be.
As simple as that!

a message from a friend:
We all have dreams.
We all have aspirations.

Throughout our lives, we come up with ideas of what we would like to accomplish in the future - the places we'd like to be, the kind of work we'd like to do.

These dreams may not be grand, and they may not make us millionaires,

but fulfilling these dreams, or at least some of them,

is crucial to a full and happy life.

It is important that you are happy.

Adversities are not barriers;

difficult times help you discover

who you are,

what you really want out of life,

and

how you can contribute to this world.

.accept it

phew my head is swimming

2006-01-21T10:11:00.000Z

it has been a whirlwind

so much homework piling
and I tried to catch up wit my work
luckily someone appreciates it

well boarding life isnt as bad as i thought it is
esp e food it's much better than those my previous sch
and the people are so friendly!

i love it here
but of course i still miss e sun in sg

school life here is like that in university
u gotta do your own independent study most of the time
no more spoonfeedin

and pe here is well not that fantastic
cold weather deprive u from doing much
and we did the yoga class from video
with the teacher who is still learning it
not so professional i must say
but it's a small class of four so
perhaps we can each get more attention from the instructor

i jogged after school yesterday with the girls
round the lacrosse field
around the football field size
i must say it was rather cold
by the fourth round
i was dying literally
my ears were not used to the cold
they were throbbing in pain
the other girl went on running
go girl!
while the other one took a slow casual walk
and i followed suit after some time
it's unbearably cold
my hands turned white
i thought it looked like vampire's hands
(mystified??)

meanwhile my roommate is taking her beauty sleep
sleepin beauty is tucked in her sleep
haha
she is absolutely crazy about kenya west!
i am beginning to fall in love wit him!!
haha
kenya rocks!

school starts at 9 after registration
and ends at around 4
and then it is followed with the
much anticipated supper

so i 'll just stare at the clock and hopefully
mashed potato and salmon will
content my stomach
hmm
i can already smell it from afar!

lovin london? yeah right

2006-01-09T06:14:00.000Z

hey everyone

i wonder who am i writing tis for

for a column in some kinda random magazine?

it's freezin in london here
whats more when it snows!

i hop
i jump
i squeal
i scream
i shriek
i scratch
i kick

i cant talk at all
when i do
my teeth knock
my ankles cry
"SAVE US from
THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW!!"

[maybe it wasnt that cold
im jus exaggerating. but im dying, people]

i see my nose turns blue
and so i see my hairs stand up
like a cat fluffed up
[another hyperbole.]

im dying in icicle cold
save me
jus like what corrinne may says
SAVE me from this place

im becoming a snowoman soon
i still want a bright future
i dont want to be a tourist exhibition
as yet.

xmas eve

2005-12-24T01:08:00.000Z

ginger man ginger bell ginger all the waAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY......

on my way to adulthood

2005-12-14T09:50:00.000Z

I DECIDE

Don't think that you can tell me what to think
I'm the one who knows what's good for me
And I'm stating my independence
Gonna take the road
I'm gonna take
And I'm gonna make my own mistakes
It's my life
I decide
I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
What I need
Who I know
I'm the one who's runnin' my life I decide
I decide
Don't think you're ever gonna hold me down
Couldn't do it then can't do it now
I'm kickin' down all the fences
I'm gonna do it all and do too much
And if I mess the whole thing up
It's my ride
I decide
I decide how I liveI decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
Where I sleep
Who I knowI'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide
I'm taking my own chances
And I'm finding my own answers
I'm only answering to me
And that's the way it's gonna be
I decide
Oh yeah
I decide
I decide
I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up
I decide
I decide where I go
Where I sleep
Who I knowI'm the one who's runnin' my life
I decide
I decide
I decide how I live
I decide who I love
Choice is mine
And no one gets to make my mind up

I decide

2 years agony

2005-12-14T06:39:00.000Z

......this is for you

you may not read this

but

i hope you do

2 years of dilemma
2 years of unspoken truth

2 years of bridling
2 years of blissful ignorance

2 years of wondering
2 years of hidden memories

2 years of lost time
2 years of misunderstanding

2 years of frustration
2 years of blind assumption

loads of things have happened
and

lately things have
taken a turn for the worse

perhaps
this is a sign that
we do need a real break

a break in time

a break in this confusion

however
no worries
these two years,

they are gone now
or should i say lost?

a chapter i should have closed

a year ago

guess wad? i miss SCHOOL

2005-12-11T15:14:00.000Z

dec hols
is here
but
i really
miss my
school!

staring blankly
into space
wondering

CRAP
I cant write a poem now
my mind is blank

hmm lets start another topic

lets see
oh!
lets talk bout...
me and my friends :)

i love my friends
without them
i honestly
wouldnt know
what to do

they are like
my bros and sistas
sometimes
the can understand u
better than ur family
no doubt
on certain areas
u can only confide to them

coz if your family
ever
finds out
tat would be the end

however
there may be
a point in time
whereby

they seem far away
though they may be
just right next to you

maybe it's high time
that you review
your friendship
if there may be flaws
or you are going
in different direction
or you are spending
less
and
less
time together

or is it time
for you to spend
your time
on someone else worthier?

vexed.back to square one

2005-11-09T13:20:00.000Z

i'm confused
back to square one again
where the root of the problems lies
i really have no idea
what am i doin'?
am i doing the right thing?
should i follow them?
or should i follow my little voice?
is that really my little voice?
or is it just an illusive voice?
i need an answer
i don't want to go on a roundabout again
and return to the same old
premise of dilemma
none of these should have happened
i'm stuck in a rut
i do not know what is right or wrong anymore
i feel like banging my head into the computer right now
but i shall kill the idea
not worth it
or my heart will ache for the money
i have to fork out for the damage done
no more damage pls
i already feel badly bruised
yes
i just want to snap out of all these
and be someone else

i miss my bloggie

2005-11-06T14:51:00.000Z

hey man long time no see
I MISS YAAA!!
*muahz*
i miss my blog
lalala

O is jus around the corner
or to put it more accurately it is TOMORROW

lets scream people

AAAAAAAAARRRRHHHH

okay back to reality

hmm lets talk about yesterday

it was kinda blurry to me cos i was so so sleepy
kinda tired after days lacking sleep

hmm

but well i had a sweet feeling then
it was well not too bad
okay i lied
i was on cloud nine
yep
i was the happiest girl
:)

ha ah
bet you won't know what happened
I will leave it to you to guess
;P

let's keep the suspense there for the time being

im back

2005-10-26T06:04:00.000+01:00

current status: in the midst of exam

current state of mind: cant concentrate. thinking of someone

current thought: WHY? WHY? WHY?

current decision: must put things behind you. NO BUTs

I shall forget you
if I ever succeed

meanwhile
i shall pretend
nothing has happened
I have never known u ever existed

bury my regrets
my bits of my shattered feelings
wipe away my tears
dry my wet cheeks
LOOK TO THE FUTURE

dont care what others say
just follow your heart
and keep an optimistic view

DAMN IT

I AM NOT GOING TO LOSE OUT TO MS SELF PITY (metaphor)
I AM SO GOING TO BUST YOU OUT
WATCH OUT (not directed to anyone in particular)

2005-09-22T15:02:00.000+01:00

i'm on clouds nine and i'm not ashamed to declare my feeling

2005-09-21T10:52:00.000+01:00

PRELIM IS OFFICIALLY OVER!!
yeah people it is FINALLY OVER!!
YESH
YESH
YESH
YESH YESH YESH YESH YESH YESH YESH YESH!!
after so many light years i waited
and the fateful day is eventually here
lets clap
and jump
lets groove
lets punch the air
coz happiness finally knocked on your door

yes it is here to stay

on the verge of insanity

2005-09-02T18:12:00.000+01:00

chemistry clouds my mind

maths disINTEGRATE my brain

physics imbalance my sanity

social studies land me in a conflict, almost

biology eats up by medulla oblongata space

geography makes me want to jump off the cliff

litarature sets myself into dilemma

to study or not to study?

thou shalt know

in a week's time

food for thought

2005-08-31T23:08:00.000+01:00

have you ever realized that
you feel the most awkward
to cry your heart out
in front of the person you feel closest to?

that sometimes it is easier to
cry in front of a stranger?

funny

how we behave sometimes

school gatherings bring back old memories

2005-08-31T22:58:00.000+01:00

i love my primary school
i have fond memories there
tat is where i feel most 'at home'

friendly people
who are not afraid t make a fool of themselves
just to get e atmosphere in cheerful mood
making silly jokes
and recounting the good old days
man i feel old
gossiping
boys n girls alike i guess haha
havent had a lively chat with them for a long time

we went to MacD and have a gathering there
it was great
i could not bear t leave
but yeah all good things have t come t an end
i dun regret meeting my friends
they have more or less coloured my life

hopefully
we still can have such a gathering
be it 10 years or 50 years down the road

` embrace the good memories
coz they dont come by as easily
like a tint of gold in the rainbow`

everyday thoughts

2005-08-29T08:51:00.000+01:00

thought 1:
greeted by hectic week
i cant help but pull a 100 meter long face
half hoping tat i break the guiness world record

thought 2:
got myself into a fix
like a fly in a hot soup

ironically
i can still imagine myself
whistling down the school path
the next day

thought 3:
gosh
i cant believe wad i wrote
as i flipped my secret lil diary
some silly things
i cant imagine myself doin

i guess i haf grown a lil more tis yer
i no longer think the way i do in the past
no more silly love notes
no more incessant bawling
no more unnecesary whines
no more crying out loud
no more over reliance

i learnt to be more like an adult

thought 4:
i buried the past
and took things in my stride

i should start life anew

thought 5:
i took certain things lightly
some for the good
and some for the worse
(should have listened to their advice)

thought 6:
life is really not that awful
and so i realized
if only i have looked at things differently
they will not what they are today

thought 7:
just do your best.
do not care of what the outcome may be
that way you will have no regret
if it turns out otherwise

thought 8:
even your closest friend may be lying to you
right now
right here
right beside you

well
no sweat
we all do that sometimes

thought 9:
do not take things too hard
close one eye
and overlook your friends' lil flaws
that way find beauty in them

thought 10:
well all these seem to sound like a ramble
but these are some of the everyday thoughts
i have as i stare into the blue sky
as i walk home in my sweaty uniform

[it is high time
i pen down a new chapter in my book]

bumped into old frens

2005-06-27T08:44:00.000+01:00

i was riding home todae. passed by b e a t t y sec sch.
i was staring into nothing
when i saw a guy.
'he looks familiar' i thought
we stared @ each other
it was only seconds before he recognised me
quite surprising
then another one came along
e footballer i used to noe has grown so tall
he almost touched e ceiling of e bus
we chatted for a while.
it was a great feelin to meet someone u did not talk to for years
i miss my old friends.
hope one day we will meet again.

The Three Oddest Words

2005-06-20T01:59:00.000+01:00

When I pronounce the word Future,

the first syllable already belongs to the past.

When I pronounce the word Silence,

I destroy it.

When I pronounce the word Nothing,

I make something no non-being can hold.

oh happy day!

2005-06-18T03:39:00.000+01:00

I AM HAPPPPPPPPPIEEEEEEEE!

bwahahaha im hapie :)

2005-06-17T05:14:00.000+01:00

WOOOOOHOOOOO im the KING!!! this is my kingdom!!

2005-06-17T05:13:00.000+01:00

yayyyyyyy :D

2005-06-17T05:11:00.000+01:00

damn it. im FREE

I shall be free

2005-06-17T04:34:00.000+01:00

FRee

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it allI just fall on my knees and
I try to pray
In the silence
I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

Well
i guess
everything has its time and place
i guess everything happens for a reason
it is part of a big plan
it is jus dat i havent seen it
it shall reveal itself one day
in e meantime i shall do whatever i should do
and wait for the day when i will finally understand all these

someone needs time to heal

2005-06-17T04:17:00.000+01:00

"Time is not a great healer. It is an indifferent and perfunctory one. Sometimes it does not heal at all. And sometimes when it seems to, no healing has been necessary. "

people says time will heal
can it really?

maybe it can,

cant,

"A broken bone can heal, but the wound a word opens can fester forever."

The loss of a friend is like that of a limb; time may heal the anguish of the wound, but the loss cannot be repaired
or never.

maybe some forms of entertainment might work.
"I think that's one of the most important gifts we have in television-the ability to heal through laughter."

perhaps the presence of someone will help

"When our eyes see our hands doing the work of our hearts, the circle of Creation is completed inside us, the doors of our souls fly open, and love steps forth to heal everything in sight."

"In every community, there is work to be done.

In every nation, there are wounds to heal.

In every heart, there is the power to do it. "

i can do this.

and it shall be done.

adventures and life.

2005-06-15T09:32:00.000+01:00

Adventures

You can't cross the sea merely by standing and staring at the water.
Don't let yourself indulge in vain wishes.

Who dares nothing, need hope for nothing.

If we do not find anything very pleasant, at least we shall find something new.

Life as a Canvas

Life is your canvas. As a soul, you choose your starting colors - which are your body, your human personality, your country and family of birth. Then you come into your life, with your paintbrushes and colors ready to begin the artwork called your life. This is where most people get stuck. They hand their brushes and paints over to others and wonder later why the painting called their life, is not what they wanted it to be. Your life is not anyone else's fault or responsibility. Your life purpose is to hold your paintbrushes with joy and to paint a picture of life that is true to you - it can never be right or wrong, and you cannot fail at it

Chirabian. I will never wan to b one

2005-06-15T09:08:00.000+01:00

heyy people

whoa
e past few weeks have been quite hectic
countless of lectures
and loads of english workshop
they are draining me
phew

i 'm jus feelin the stress of sec 4 now
o level is nearing
and it is freaky scary
not as bad as apocalypse
duh
i dun believe in such rubbish anw

today i was talkin t my fren
I was asking her something
and all i evergot was
blank stares
and "HHAAAH??"
apparently
i pronounced 'bed' as 'bag' or 'back'
or whatever it is
e question was
"do u let ur doggie t lie on ur bed?"
and she heard it as back
quite silly

gotta brush my english these days i guess
or i might jus end up
like Arabian conversing broken english one day
geez
that is so awful
given tat
i'm not even cut out to be an Arabian
i am yellow skinned
and looked so Chinese
maybe one day i might jus be
the 1st
Chirabian
gosh
sounds weird

put behind my past

2005-06-14T02:26:00.000+01:00

gotta motivate myself fer e big day!
cant afford to dwell in e past
gotta think of e college i will enter
e line of job i take an interest in
life is not always a party
sooner or later i have to leave the bed of roses
or rather i have left it long ago

e past is a history
e present is a gift
the future is a mystery

i miss mi frens. i miss those good ol daes

2005-05-24T02:19:00.000+01:00

i miss mah frens in indo. mi pri skul frens
i miss those daes where can laugh heartily
i miss hugging mi frens
i miss them terribly
some of them seem pretty far from me now
phyiscally
emotionally
i guess tats wad happen if u lead a nomadic life
people walk into and out of your life
as if they come jus to say hi and byes and tats all
true friends are hard to come by
but i will treasure all my frens anw
coz friendship means much more than bgr relationship
friendship lasts over e time
and bgr realationship dont coz
either one will walk out of you
if i were to choose
between my bf or mi frens
i am sorry guys
but i will choose my friends
before any of mi bf
friends come 1st
they were there 1st before you came
and they are on the top of my list.
i love my friends. :)))
of course next to mah piano heeh

give me courage

2005-05-21T12:58:00.000+01:00

Coach Ken Carter: What is your deepest fear?
Timo Cruz : Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

i wont let u shatter my hopes

2005-05-19T10:45:00.000+01:00

i am so tired
someone is so discouraging
what is so bad about applyin for e direct admission thing?
dat person doesnt hav t scold ppl jus coz of e fact e person is cant b bothered t overload himself/herself wit work loads n applications t fill in
mayb e person has a point but stil i prefer dat e person dun put others so down as if we are a piece of shit compared to those sports champions
there is no harm in trying your luck
u will regret it more if u din even try at all
tryin is better than not tryin at all

i ran 2.4 and mi timing is so bad

2005-05-15T04:59:00.000+01:00

morning peopleee!!

it is bright and shiny todae
overcast
but in all breezy

i ran 2.4 and was dyin in e last round *gasp*

my sis arh
she walked 3 rounds and was screaming fer food alr
i had t wait fer her finishin her last few rounds
and she suggested i climbed upe tree and plucked a couple of coconut fruits
LIke ReAl

in all it was a great feelin to run in e breezy morning,
listening to 'testify to love'
the sun was up and e birds are chirpin
man i feel GOOD

testify Your love

2005-05-14T12:26:00.000+01:00

Testify

Love

All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
That reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take
I will give thanks to God above
For as long as I shall live
I will testify to love
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the sea
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches out to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak what love has done

AVALON

2005-05-14T05:46:00.000+01:00

rainbow in mah heart

2005-05-14T05:43:00.000+01:00

fill mah soul

if i aint got u baby

2005-05-14T05:10:00.000+01:00

If I Aint Got You Baby

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define whats within
And I have been there before
But that life is a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at all
If it aint you baby
If I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I aint got you,
Yeah
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And thats the only way to prove you love 'em
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share with no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at allIf it aint you baby
If I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I aint got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at all If it aint you baby
If I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I aint got you, yeah
Some people want it all
But I dont want nothing at allIf it aint you baby
If I aint got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I aint got you If I aint got you with me baby
See, nothing in this whole wide world don��t mean a thing If I aint got you with me baby Alicia Keys

P.S. madly in love.I loveeeee mah Piano!!! i love all e composers! they are nice-ies. mah world wont be so dull anymore wit music in mah life!

un-blank me

2005-05-06T11:40:00.001+01:00

seriously i need a break from all these madness and chaos
loads things haf been happening
and i dun understand the people around me
and myself
sometimes i look at the floor
and turn my head 180 degrees
taking in the surrounding
and ask myself
"what am i doin here?"
"what is this place?"
"who am i?"
(please i am stil sane okay i noe tat there r 26 alphabets)
maybe too many things haf been goin on in my life
that i don't have time to take it all in
to digest them one by one
i wonder if this is what they call 'mid-life crisis'
sigh ( ihate sighing sounds so self defeating but well cant be helped sometimes)
i seriously need to destress
and a remedy
to 'unblank' mi mind
i haf been in another realm these days
mi mind is blank
i stare into nothingness
i even overflow my burette wit permanganate
(luckily it didnt stain mi skirt. phew)
i really need to pour out mi troubles
i dun like keepin it bottled up
or i will explode one day
like the Hiroshima bomb

Nunc scio quit sit amor. now i know what love is.

2005-04-26T12:21:00.000+01:00

And
ever
has
it
been
that
love
knows
not
its
own
depth
until
the
hour
of
separation

2005-04-12T12:15:00.000+01:00

lovely yummy super delicious rich bdae cake

2005-04-12T12:14:00.000+01:00

woohoo after e lunch. daniel was in toilet. a pity he missed it

2005-04-12T12:13:00.000+01:00

lovin it

im seventeen now!! WOOHOO

2005-04-12T11:50:00.000+01:00

yeah!
now im seventeen people!! im so hapie!
dat means one more yer b4 i cld drive car! yesh!
hmm
i had a bdae party last sat @ seoul garden
it was a veri memorable event to mi!
e most fun i eva had!
mi bros and sisters are mostly there
i was showered wit gifts heeh
we had a buffet
and man....
look @ e gals go chowin down e food
e guys are rather taken aback
even mi too
but dat goes to show how great they are as frens!
*imagine sacrificing ur stomach fer e dae*
they even skipped breakfast jus fer mi bdae treat!
actuali they haf 3x the servings e guys had
it was kinda scary lookin @ them
e guys 'donated' their soup base t e gals coz currently
e gals love e food so much till their own soup base are all used up
3 servings mind u
but yea i was happie
i paid the bill not fer nothing :)
i took a couple of memorable pic wit mi frens
and agnes dun wanna let me take her photo
so in e end i haf t sneak and take snap shots of her
i haf t admit tat natural pose are indeed more interesting
*i got to snap @ e back of her head* man her hair so shiny. wonder wad shampoo she used
mi bro gave mi tis giraffe doll
u can unfold it and..
VIOLA!
it is a cushion!
i got a handwritten pillow by e gals
* iwas so touched. i will hug it wit mi always in mi sleep.
it will always remind me of them where ever i am* :)
i received a bracelet...
then a pair of sandals wit e doggies heads jutting out . reali cute
a garfield heart shaped cushion
and e most amazing thing is tat
all 3 cushions are in yellow!
mi favourite colour!
haha
i dunno how some of them knew mi fav colour.
i guess telepathy eh?
after tat we went t take photos and neoprints
arthya was so extra he purposely make himself an additional to e background of almost every photos. haha. i had plenty of laughs there
then we went t take neoprints. me and e gals. n mi and e guys.
had to squeeze our face into e screen
some people then parted for their individuals businesses
then we went back to cjc hostel
to cut mi cake
sadly we ended up stuffin ourselves wit e cake.*it was so rich
coz i 4got t bring it out b4 e lunch
by e time we finished e cake we were so full
our bellies are like nuclear bombs ready to xplode anitime
*i tink agnes wld haf been traumatized by oreo cheese cake by now
we went off to watche performance by e scholars
yossy was e ugly duckling in e play
she was veri cute. she looked like an xtra in e bollywood scene * a duck comin in btw e indian couple haha*
in e end i was escorted by mi fren back home
*felt bad coz he insisted on carryin e heavy cake e whole dae and he ended up climbing over his hostel fence

HAPPIE

2005-04-01T04:33:00.000+01:00

lets grOOve (:

sniff* feelin sick

2005-04-01T04:07:00.000+01:00

geez i din manage to go fer sports dae
im so tired n sick
feel so drained
yesterdae had tuition aft skul
and then went straight fer dance class
i was e clumsiest i guess
coz e tcher Kerry kept correcting me

i confused e dance moves
i can dance to the right but not to the left
and it was kinda hard to turn and move your hands and joints at e same time
( i dunno wad im crappin bout now coz i haf no idea actuali wad im dancing)
it was a mix of ballet and jazz moves as Kerry said
e class was pretty small
'round 10 gals and 2 guys
e two jc guys must haf felt rather awkward * 1:5 guy: gal
i tink one of them is from rjc. towering giant
met tis gal frm mi skul too!
shes frm sec3Gy and whoa
i was tilting mi head up talkin t her
*suddenly felt so small*physically ehem
im jus a lil vertically challenged
tat sounds nicer*
and u noe wad!
she tot im frm sec1!

hello woman im sec4!
older than ya!
sheesh
anw after e class
we decided t b xtras
and asked e tcher t revise e moves again
and i tink mi n e gal will somehow meet in skul n practise our moves
somewhere in skul where no one will notice us
so they wont think we r dance freaks

hmm wonder wad song i will bring fer e next class
i was thinkin of "eyes on you" by jay sean
iam hooked to it
it was a cool song t groove to
u cant stopped once u r hooked
haha
i guess it dun apply only t drugs
it applies to dancing too!

2005-03-23T10:30:00.000Z

flowery relic

2005-03-23T10:21:00.000Z

french choc religieuse. o-la-la

yumyum. cant stop thinking bout food

2005-03-23T09:55:00.000Z

hahas.
im drenched to e skin now.
no umbrella.
so had to make mi wae home frm orchard in e rain.
bought a cd. it was great.
chemical brothers rawks!
jojo n bow wow arent too bad either.
i got nth t do during recess so i ran 6 rounds after mi meal.
damn
it was a gud feelin t relive ur stress.
mi mind is kinda kosong nowadays
i cant stop thinking bout food
*thinking of dat yummy mango tart i haf e other dae*
i tink im overloaded wit work,
i need a break.
mayb i shld stop daydreamin bout food.
geez
i dunno food cld b so much of a distraction

food*yum yum.

Chance. Fate

2005-03-21T08:14:00.000Z

ms belle tan was reciting this poem is class. it was beautiful. this is e poem frm which jimmy liao got his inspiration to write 'turn left turn right' the movie.

actually it was nothing bout love.

but Fate and Chance.

they are amazing things. t

hey happen all e time it was jus dat u nv realize them.

now tis is wad i call a genuine work of art.

Love at First Sight

by Wislawa Szymborska

They're both convinced

that a sudden passion joined them.

Such certainty is beautiful,

but uncertainty is more beautiful still.

Since they'd never met before, they're sure

that there'd been nothing between them.

But what's the word from the streets, staircases, hallways --

perhaps they've passed each other a million times?

I want to ask them

if they don't remember --

a moment face to face

in some revolving door?

perhaps a "sorry" muttered in a crowd?

a curt "wrong number" caught in the receiver?

but I know the answer.

No, they don't remember

They'd be amazed to hear

that Chance has been toying with them

now for years.

Not quite ready yet

to become their Destiny,

it pushed them close, drove them apart,

it barred their path,

stifling a laugh,

and then leaped aside.

There were signs and signals,

even if they couldn't read them yet.

Perhaps three years ago

or just last Tuesday

a certain leaf fluttered

from one shoulder to another?

Something was dropped and then picked up.

Who knows, maybe the ball that vanished

into childhood's thicket?

There were doorknobs and doorbells

where one touch had covered another

beforehand.

Suitcases checked and standing side by side.

One night, perhaps, the same dream,

grown hazy by morning.

Every beginning

is only a sequel, after all,

and the book of events

is always open halfway through

2005-03-21T07:59:00.000Z

yum2. sweeett..hmmm. *droolz*

holz ended. skul's here. AGAIN

2005-03-21T07:51:00.000Z

geez im so tired 2dae.

burnt midnight oil fer geo test.

haiz

bit lethargic in e aftn

so sleepy

cranky

by e time it was recess

mi stomach was growling

screaming fer food

ate loads and

i was so full

i burped.

was

a great

meal.

and

this

entry

is getting

boring...

im so sleepy...

eyes are dropping

i tink

i will go

and catch

forty winks

now

cya ppl

looking forward to tomorrow

a brighter new day

beholding surprises

i cant wait

2005-03-19T15:18:00.000Z

looking forward to the day i found u

2005-03-19T15:15:00.000Z

frens together forever. u promised so. but will we be?

there for me. are you?

2005-03-19T14:48:00.000Z

There for me

~ Sarah Brightman

There for me, every time I've been away

Will you be there for me, thinking of me ev'ry day

Are you my destiny, words I never dared to say

Will you be there for me?

Just think of you and me, we could never toe the line

It's such a mystery just to hear you say you're mine

And while you're close to me, so close to me

Just hold me

Se non sei con me, mi sembra grigia la citta

Camminando solo i piccoli vedo giocar

Volti e voci del passato che non ricordavo piu

Mi chiedono

Are you still there for me?

Forse qualche giorno poi

Il mondo capira che non molto puo capitar

E tu ci sei per me senti cosa dicono

But you're just there for me

And while you're close to me, so close to me

Just hold me

Dimmi quanto tempo ancora resterai con me

Dimmi quante cose mi nascondi dentro te

Molti sogni abbiamo che alfin potremmo vivere

Io spero che

are You still there for me?

Forse qualche giorno poi

Il mondo capira che non molto puo capitar

E tu ci sei per me senti cosa dicono

But you're just there for me

There for me

Can't you hear the people say

That you're just there for me

There for me

When it's blowing cold and all the city streets are grey

Walking all along and watching how the children play

Voices on the wind and faces from the past all dancing by

They're asking why

Are you still there for me?

Everytime I go away

Are you still there for me?

Thinking of me everyday

Are you my destiny?

Words I never dared to say

Are you still there for me?

Can you really want me more than for a little while

What are all the stories hiding there behind your smile

Wishes in a dream and figures in a world that I could share

And everywhere

Will you be there for me

Will there ever come a day

When all the world can see

Things were meant to be that way

And you're still there for me

2005-03-17T11:48:00.000Z

even angels have their downs. whats more us

2005-03-17T11:43:00.000Z

blue. blue. BLUE